It's been now 5 days since I got held captive in Manhattan NY. This bustling place is just jam packed with people, cars, horses, smog, honks, and smells. Before I get too negative about NY, I thought I really need another vacation from this NY vacation.

Yet, tonight, I thought how fragile my thoughts are after watching a show called, "Mamma Mia!" I liked ABBA since when I was a kid and I knew all the songs and thought "Oh my how time flies. Now they are making musicals using songs that I actually know!"

Funnier thing is that my wife, Esther, didn't know any songs and she is only 4 years younger than me. I really wanted her to know the songs, but she insisted she didn't know. I hope she lied to me. :-)

Interesting thing I found though. Although I'm from a big city such as Seoul myself, I never realized that the city noise constantly could make my 3rd eye sitimulated to the point that I had to close my eyes and go in. Weird thing is when I was in, I found familiar feeling within me that I felt when I was a kid living in Seoul.

As the tour guide yapped away about some real estate in Manhattan, I found familiar place within me in a totally and seemingly uninviting place for me such as NY. It was pleasant at the same time tense. In any case, I do need a vacation from NY. :-) 4/10/08 -Molado

It's been about 3 days since I got here in N.Y. agaist my will. :-) I miss home already. One day at a time. I'm finding my joys in helping people more and more. I've been a member of Selftrance.com, one of the largest in Korea, with over 15,000 members.

I find joys when people tell me how much they appreciate the good news of hypnosis. I realized how much hypnosis and hypnotherapy have been misguided over the years in Korea. I guess the lack of understanding the emotions or feelings has been contributing to the kind of confusions there.

Everyday I see people are waiting for my posts, which only modivates me for more implementations and wisdoms. I pray each day that I can be that much closer in helping people more and more as my 2nd calling. -Molado 4/8/08

Today’s meditation reassured me that I’m truly a free man, and that a true free man is actually free and in tune with his mind or feelings.

There may be many ways to achieve just such, but I think the most effective and speedy way of achieving it is via hypnosis and meditation.

The source or the subconscious is actually the home of the mind. As long as our body is living in this Earth, the actual peace of mind resides at home, the source. I think we are blessed ones to know the wisdom. 4/3/08 -Molado

I liked this story since when I was kid. I still enjoy occasionally. If you like "The Art of War" by Sun Tzu, you'll love this story. Mostly, I like it because of the relationships and characters in the story. Check it out when you can! Enjoy. -Molado 4/1/08

I realized something big today. This morning when I was meditating, I felt myself that today will be one of the most important days of my life. I told my wife on the way to Church as well. She asked me why and how I would know. I just told her I just have the feeling.

After the service, we came back and watched me some fun stage shows in my office, and I decided to give my conscious a break. As I went in, although I didn’t really mean to, I just followed my feeling, a feeling of happiness.

As I counted 1,2,3, I regressed to the time of my happy time. I went back when I was 5. It was when my sister was having her Dol (1st birthday in Korean). I was so high and happy to see a lot of people having such a good time.

At first, I didn’t know why the heck I was so happy. Soon I realized that it was my sister’s birthday and so many guests were there eating and having great times, but when I asked myself why I was really so happy, I told myself that I was happy because I have this shiny thing in my hand and it tastes so good. A taste that I’ve never had before, which was the taste of my 1st Coca Cola! After that, I was playing with the bottle, just playing and flying the Coke bottle in my hand, making airplane noises, running in between my parents’ guests and seeing their happy faces… so happy. And then I asked myself why I have this piece of pain in my heart and I asked to go back in time (or go forth).

I went back when I was in the 3rd grade, a math class. The teacher was giving a question to us. There are about 60 students in the class, but I’m now so focused that I know the answer already. The answer is 0. The answer is 0. The diagram and the equations were already drawn in my head, done, calculated, and the answer is 0.

When the teacher asked what the answer would be, I wanted to raise my hand. Nobody knew. I wanted to raise my hand and say the answer, but I couldn’t. Immediately I felt that I could’ve been so happy if I just raised my hand just like when I was five, and told the whole class the answer, but I didn’t. I felt strange. I felt discouraged. I felt like a looser. It was a sad and happy feeling at the same time. So, I did a little patchwork on me and I took myself out. Of course I didn’t forget to thank God for making me realize and see my ages and take the wisdoms of both times and now…

All of me felt so much better, I realized that I had the most beautiful day today of my life, just as I saw myself this morning when I had a feeling that today will be one of the most important day of my life. With my tears flowing down, I emerged myself and felt the shine in my eyes. As I walked my garden, I wondered what happened between my age of five and nine. My heart feels the time, yet I really don’t want to regress, not now. Let me just enjoy the happy times now. :-) 3/30/08 –Molado